The beginning of a new journey

Looming: that is the word I like to use to describe college. College is supposed to be like a box of assorted chocolates, where the chocolates are various opportunities that help you expand your horizons into unclaimed lands. It is supposed to be about the learning and the growth and the fulfillment of finding yourself, and I get that. But for some reason, college to me has felt like a source of pressure about to drop on my head. As a result, I have always eluded thoughts about college and ideas for the future I envision for myself.

I have an ambitious friend who likes to find new opportunities all the time. One day she came up to me and told me that it would be cool to start a blog. For me, that was like unicorns dancing on rainbows, in other words, I was readier than ever to do something. I absolutely love writing (even though I’m not that good at it) and I want to spread love for the things that bring me happiness. But one thing was still unsaid, and that was my friend’s reason for having this idea.

My friend is a little different from me in that she likes planning ahead. I, on the other hand, just decide to deal with things as they happen. However, I understand that that is not the best idea for some situations, such as college planning! (Please note the sarcasm in my excitement.) The idea for this blog was perhaps born from her constant worry of not doing enough. But I don’t blame her. Sometimes I also contemplate whether I’m just under an illusion of being good enough, whether in reality I’m seriously screwed for my future.

To me, this blog was never supposed to be about college or impressing anyone or adding another thing to my unfinished list of accomplishments. In fact, I thought of this blog as my child, something I could foster and take care of, something that could distract me or provide me with a vacation from the impending decision-making that I so despise. Whether or not this blog ends up on my college applications or if anybody even finds this blog, I hope to become a happier person from it. 

A new perception of the world

So now that I have explained the reason this blog exists, I want to talk about its purpose. I titled this blog Sensorium because I want to put out ideas that help others make sense of the world in a new way… hence my tagline: A new perception of the world. I don’t expect people to always agree with what I say, but I think opinions should be out there to spark thinking in someone else who might stumble upon it and make some discovery of their own. The only caveat, of course, is that you do not threaten or harm anyone with your words. I’m sure we’ve all heard that before.

Okay, now that we have had a (sort of) philosophical discussion, what can you expect from this blog? I like to think I have a fascination with nature and all the little hidden things that most people don’t pay attention to. I tend to look for patterns, and it’s not just mathematical patterns that I get excited over, although when you combine math and art, you get so many beautiful things. Recently, I’ve been trying to find patterns in the languages I try to learn. Sometimes, I look for patterns in other people’s behaviors, and I question why many people have such similar habits. But whatever fascinating idea it is, I hope to share it here along with some mathemagical art. If you like that, then great! If that’s not your thing, then also great! But I guess that’s what you get when you let a nerd run a blog 🙂